Through Fire and Change

Jaina Peveto

Siofra is too soft. She is small, like the quiet kind of mouse you find in children’s picture books. Sometimes, when the day has been long and I’m too tired to think straight, I imagine she might disappear one day. She would just grow fainter and weaker until she’s no longer anything at all.

But I say nothing. It isn’t my business. I’m just her roommate. I’ve never been one to comment on a person’s health, anyway. It’s just always seemed rather rude to me. I wouldn’t want anyone to point out that I haven’t slept, even if I feel the aching exhaustion settle into my bones. How I feel should be my business, and how Siofra is feeling should be hers.

I just make sure to give her a second helping of dinner when I can. It’s not much, but it keeps the subject quiet and it makes me feel like I did something right by helping. It’s a win-win solution, really. Except for the fact that even without my help, Siofra could probably eat a dragon if she didn’t mind the spice. And she still never seems to look any healthier.

I have grown up with jagged edges, but some part of me is gentle enough to worry for my roommate. I do not say anything, but I worry for her health. It seems she’s been handed the short stick in life, the flaming kind that your life is attached to.

But sometimes, there’s something else. Certain mannerisms of hers draw my suspicions away from an innocent sickly girl, and toward something more dangerous.

Sometimes, she speaks of things she should have no knowledge of. Her eyes look far older than the rest of her, which looks even younger than she is. Sometimes she smiles a secret smile, the kind that tells me she knows something. Something she shouldn’t.

I put out my iron-cast skillet and ask her to cook, just to put my suspicions to rest. But each time I do so, she makes an excuse and leaves me to make the meal. She won’t even eat anything made from that skillet, for some odd reason, which makes absolutely no sense because the spices in there are extraordinary.

Unless. Unless I’m right.

Finally, enough is enough. I buy a carton of eggs. And when Siofra asks me what I’m doing, I smile and tell her I’m cooking in an eggshell.

She squints down at it. “Kaida,” she says quietly, “I don’t think there’s enough room in there to cook anything. And aren’t you afraid it might break?”

Hmm. No odd poems. Maybe she isn’t a changeling after all.

Kaida is loud and brash, and she speaks like a spitfire. She seems to roar all her words, and she’s always sitting by the fire. She always insists on using this ridiculously spicy cast-iron skillet, and tries to make me cook from it as well. (I refuse. I even more of a rubbish cook than she is.) Her food is always so spicy. It’s ridiculous.

There is something very off about Kaida. I hate to admit it, but she is just a bit terrifying. She switches between hovering over me like a mother hen and squinting at me suspiciously when I so much as cough. It makes me curse my weak immune system more than ever.

I was hoping for a roommate who would leave me be. I have been hovered over for my entire life, and I am tired of it. Kaida is as bright as a searing sunrise, but she’s also as dark as the underside of a pegasus’s wings. I cannot tell whether it is that light or that blackness that scares me more.

After all, what kind of person turns on the heat during the summer? What kind of person hisses back to the snakes in the zoo? What kind of person likes food that burns off the roof of their mouth?

Why is Kaida so claustrophobic? Why does she speak of historical events as though she were alive back then? Why does she have a box of jewels in her room?

Sometimes, when she looks into the distance, if I peer closely, I can see the reflection of something else in her eyes. Something not human. Something serpentlike.

And sometimes, I can’t help but wonder…

But no. It can’t be. Dragons aren’t real, right?

I hiss at her, one day. She blinks, and then scowls.

“Well, that was an incredibly rude thing to say.”

My fork hovers above my plate. “I didn’t say anything, Kaida.”

“Yes, you did,” she insists. She takes a bite of her breakfast. “You called me an overgrown lizard.”

“That’s an oddly specific hiss,” I reply. I lean forward, propping my elbows on the table, though I know it’s incredibly rude of me. “So. You’re a dragon?”

Kaida frowns for a moment, and then laughs. “I suppose the truth is out. And, just to make sure… you’re not a changeling, right? I tried a trick with some eggshells recently, but you didn’t really react…”

I smile. “I think I’ll let you draw your own conclusions.”

Day vs Night

 

Jeremiah Zaeske

 

Green hills roll like ripples in the sea of earth

The sun reigns the sky

its fire casting light upon the grassy plane

illuminating the colors

Colors leaping out in joy

This scene has all the bright and beautiful feelings of a youthful day

Only upon closer inspection can it be seen that the sky has other inhabitants

that under the laughter of day is the sound of the moon

being smothered beneath the burning hot gold

A dark looming figure

A stain that won’t come out

A reminder that as long as the earth spins

day will always turn to night

Some dread it

and cling to day as their sanctuary

Deem the night their enemy

A killer of light

The end of all days

The more the sun unleashes its grip on the sky

the more they fear that time has slipped through their fingers like salt water

But all the beauty of the world still stands there in the darkness

You don’t need the bright colors to feel it

There’s hope in the grey

Night and days is a symbiosis

 

 

the cost of a compliment

Lucy

You should have seen the look on her face when I complimented her pins. She had a story waiting to be told, and to finally be able to share it made her face light up.

I walk through days and see people treating compliments like currency, as if to utter one without motive would be alien. As if it would be foolish to waste your time on flattery.

I try to compliment someone every day.

We’ve all been in that situation, where we tried really hard on something only to go unnoticed. When we pulled three all-nighters in a row to get a B minus. Telling you that dress looks nice on you, that your coconut cookie recipe worked, that your eyes look lovely in this light; it doesn’t cost me anything at all, but leaves with you happier and me with this light feeling in my chest from being the cause of someone’s smile;

 

Writing from Life

Pins. Small, inconsequential objects, right? Wrong. Pins may be small objects, but they hold so many memories. Collecting pins bring back, for me, vivid times spent with either family or friends. Maybe eating lunch under the Leaning tower of Pisa, maybe taking a lift to the top of the Eiffel Tower. Maybe even going to Bethany beach, Delaware is something you want to remember. Is it not amazing how something so small could hold so many memories.

“My Grandma is My Hero”

Her hair shimmers in the bright light
She laughs at every joke I tell her
She took me to the park when I was younger
My grandma is my hero

She is a very spiritual person
Close to God
Never strays from Him
My grandma is my hero

She may give me money & gift cards
But I do not need any of that
Because I have her
And my grandma is my hero

“Live life to the fullest.” She says
I love her so much
And I live my life to the fullest with her
My grandma is my hero

The day I say goodbye
There will not be a dry eye
But she will inspire others in heaven
And she will be their hero

Alex Anderson

Murderer in the Classroom (Chapters 1&2)

By: Alex Anderson

Ch.1
Sheila woke up different than any other day. Deep inside her she felt a gruesome ache. She sat up and turned on the TV. The Ohio State news was on. Across the top of the monitor was, “Local high school teacher found dead.” Pictured at the top of the screen was an image of her beloved teacher, Mr. Garcia. She knew that going to school was going to be dreadful. Sheila met up with her best friend, Angela, and discussed the matter. Angela was also very distraught. They both stood in the doorway of the classroom. The room reeked of death. Sheila took her seat which was positioned right in front of the deceased teacher’s desk. A few days passed, and the school community was still looking for how Mr. Garcia died. Finally, the next day, Principal Lopez come on the P.A. system. The school was completely still, and for the first time all the pupils were dead silent. Principal Lopez spoke softly, but firmly he said that Mr. Garcia’s autopsy showed that he had been murdered. Now I was livid I shouted, “How could someone have murdered Mr. Garcia!” The police examined the house where Mr. Garcia might have been murdered. They found nothing. Not a single lead to who killed him. it had been two months after Mr. Garcia’s murder. No leads. No suspects. No hope.

Ch. 2
At this point I was infuriated. Two years have gone by and nothing has changed. Angela came over for a study break. Finals are next week and all I can think about is who murdered Mr. Garcia. I talked about it with Angela and I came to the conclusion that we should just work on the case by ourselves. She agreed with me. We put our books aside and we started to make a suspect list. At the top was Mr. Garcia’s wife, Annabelle, who had gone through a bitter divorce with him. She was cheating on him with his best friend. She has a clear motive. Next on the list was Johnathan Gilmore, he flunked out of Mr. Garcia’s class after he decide to ditch a whole month of school. He cannot graduate this year with his friends. He also has a motive. Last on the list was Mr. Garcia’s mother who he said despised him and said she thought he was worthless. Suddenly, Angela said, “What about…” >>> To be continued.

splatter

Samantha Tyler Engler

One flick and
color splatters
And another flick
Droplets fly

You grab colors
and brushes
Hand writhing in
Anger

Arguments and
insults flung
away from the body
Exorcise demons

Unrepentant guilt
Unrequited love
Red blood, anger,
passion, fear

Don’t let them see
Throw the blankets
over, Pretend it’s
ok. Ok?

Bright, bubbling
false facades
Standing in the
whirlwind. Ok?

Everything’s everywhere
Messes are for making
Pristine canvas
turned battleground

You’ve done it
again, no surprise
Life imitates
art imitates

Life, and
You know how
to ruin the
both of them

In the Kitchen

By: Isabella Briggs

In the kitchen, there is a secret door. It leads to an unused pantry. Mom has always kept the key with her. She will not let me through the door.

One day, I decide. I will go down there. She can not keep me from the pantry forever. I steal the key. I run and unlock the door before she can stop me. I enter the room. Just then, I stop. Everything stops. Suddenly, they are there. Memories I did not know I had. Things I did not know had happened. I feel the sorrow and pain of the past. I run from the room. I slam the door shut, locking it tight. I search the house for mom, but I can no longer find her. I know why. She has fled. She always knew  what was there. She had only been trying to protect me. To save me from the pain. Now she is gone because she knew i saw everything. She knew I saw everything. She knew i went against her only wish. So i wait. I wait. I wait until I can wait no longer. Why did I wait? In the beginning, I had hoped she would return. That she would except my apology. She never did either.

In the kitchen, there is a light. It went out long ago. Without mom there to change out the bulb, it will never turn back on.

Teacups

By: Adora Brown

In the kitchen sat four identical teacups. Each had the same swirly designs, as paint danced along every curve and crevice. Mama told me I couldn’t touch the teacups. They are not your toys, she would say. But now, Mama doesn’t seem to care about her good china anymore. Inside those cups sat cold chamomile, Papa’s favorite. But Papa and the boys never returned.

In the kitchen there is a window. In the corner is a small crack where Billy nearly shattered the smudged glass into a million pieces. There are two symmetrical lines of dust along the windowsill. Each day Mama would open that window, hoping to catch a glimpse of the troops finally returning home, hoping to see our broken family again. Correction, nearly broken. Just as Billy’s baseball nearly broke the window. There’s still hope, Mama mutters to herself sometimes.

In the kitchen there are ghosts. A small remnant of what used to be our family. Papa would sip his tea as the boys would dance around the kitchen table singing jolly tunes. Mama would scold them, but I would catch her small smiles from time to time.

In the kitchen there is a letter. It sits on the counter, taunting me, but I don’t dare move it. When Mama opened that yellow envelope she dropped her teacup, that fine piece of good china she once cared so much about, to the floor. It shattered, breaking into hundreds of little pieces. MIA, Mama whispered. Missing in Action, three words that broke apart our family. Not nearly, anymore. Completely, utterly, shattered. The remnants of what used to be now strewn across the kitchen floor. Delicate, sharp, shards of us. Now Mama sits upstairs, broken. Papa and my two older brothers, three teacups, but the tea is no longer warm. And me, an empty cup in an empty family.

thoughts from a cherry wood shelf

By Maddie Jaffe

to be an overthinker,

you must first understand what it means.

is there such a thing as an underthinker?

whose skull is a dusty, hollow, echoing shell?

or a just-right thinker,

with thoughts piled neatly on cherry wood shelves?

maybe not

or maybe so

but the point is

what makes the overthinker? what encourages one to flirt with insanity?

is it the never-ending nights watching your ceiling as

1…2…3…

hours pass, your beauty sleep a runaway paper on a windy day, always, always

blown just out of reach

or is it the fact that decisions as simple as what flavor of ice cream you want

are traumatic

painful

and leave you aching, wondering, still, an hour later, if strawberry was the right choice?

maybe it’s the eraser marks

tainting your page with an irreplaceable, indestructible gray from half-finished,

scrapped ideas and answers

that are now long gone.

so what, out of these, truly makes an overthinker?

what does it mean, and how do you become one

or make it go away?

well, friends.

I suppose we’ve overthought it.